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| Yay for Christmas! Marraige: I believe that I have come to love being married more than I ever thought I could. Levi and I have found humor rather than frustration in our differences. We find ourselves laughing until the early morning hours and dreading leaving one another in the morning. I have finally come to a place of understanding God's desire for me to get married...my questioning is over and I am enjoying the journey once again. Levi is so funny...sometimes I wish I could videotape our house so you can see the crazy man I live with! :) Job: I want to be able to say that every day I go to work and lives are changed, barriers broken, hurt forgiven and forgotten, and renewal is rampant. Unfortunately, this is not always the case. I have lost a few kids to other paths and my heart always breaks when I see there is nothing more I can do. The only hope I have is in Christ for some of my kids. May HIS power and grace be sufficient. The Church: It has been a battle for me to find where God wants me in the church. After many days of praying for direction, I believe God has really shown me his place for me. I have been able to reach out to some girls. It is all such a God thing. God is working so much in this church and I am honored to be here. Christmas: we have our tree and Levi got us a "romantic Christmas" cd! :) I believe it will be the best Christmas ever! | | |
| Thoughts on: My Job: I believe God gives us gifts that we have never really dreamed of having before. I love my job. Every day, I go into the public schools and breathe new life, a hope, fresh start into the lives of kids with behavioral, emotional, and mental disorders. My job wears me out, but at the end of the day I am so complete. I know God is using me to make a big difference...even if in the life of only one My husband: I tend to watch him from a distance at times and wonder where on earth is his ideas are coming from! Today he told me he would give his right arm to drive a machine that picks up cotton!!! AND HE WASN'T JOKING!!! But this man, this country man, loves Jesus more than any man I have ever met. He weeps as he prays over the lives of others. He hurts for the lost and the hurting. He cares for those who are in need. This week we have found ourselves eating too many of the same meals because a man needs to talk about his hurting children. We have found ourselves making double dates with our neighbors so they can trust us enough to trust our Savior. I rush off to work and come home to a clean kitchen, clean clothes and a meal...not always, but enough to feel as if I am being served throughout the week...My husband is God's gift to me....what a precious gift! My Jesus: oh, sweet savior!!! I find myself struggling to give him all of me as I balance my new union!!! I come home and play with Levi until I go to sleep at night. I read the word in the morning, but still find myself longing for more of Him. I love the Lord, and He is my life...I need more to be satisfied!!! My future: very unknown right now! Levi and I are praying about God's call in our lives to reach the nations. We are so ready to be faithful to this call. The time is coming for us to get serious...perhaps the time is closer than we were thinking... My life: so sweet, so cherished, I am so thankful...Love you all | | |
| Married life...wow...so sweet, so funny at times, and definitely challenging...it is harder than I imagined to see my ideas, my priorities, my concerns slowly change. It is so hard to die to my independence, to be stripped of what God is doing and has done in MY life, to refrain from talking about me to others...It is an "us" now...a little me, a lot of us, and definitely a focus on Christ as he kills so much of me...it is HARD TO DIE!!! But I want to...I want to be so beautiful...especially to Levi who sees my rebellious spirit all too much...so I will help him and cook every now and then even though I don't want to...and I will learn how to love him more and better, and I will learn to give beyond myself...I love Levi...he is the only one who I would want to go through this time with....but God is focusing on our strong ideas and making us both give and be a little weaker as we serve Him instead of rise up against one another. I pray for you girls so hard...I pray that God gives you "the fruits of the spirit." Perhaps you will be protected from being a stubborn wife! :) I love you all so...You are precious to me...Please let us know if you need us! (see, it is an "us" thing now!) | | |
| Tonight I am laying in my bed in our new apartment...alone...in just a week I will never be alone again...it seems so unreal to think of it like that! This time has flown by...we are finding ourselves so ready to join our lives together and see where God leads us as a pair...I pray that God is so glorified in our union and that He uses us so much! We have already met our neighbors in our apartment complex...we plan on having a big dinner party the week after the honeymoon for some of the ones we've met in the apartments so far. We really want our home to be their home so we can minister to them. God has given us a neighbor that is a believer...She will definitely be a huge asset for us as we try to minister to another culture...the african american delta culture!! :) Levi is just so amazing...He loves me in a beautiful way. He is not perfect, but he wants to be so bad!!! :) I find myself thinking everything he does is just adorable...If I listed all the things I loved, it would take forever...I can't believe that God would bless me with someone so special. I love him in a way that seems undescribable. Wait, girls, wait....it is SSSOOOOO worth it! ONE more week and we will be one! I hope you are all coming to that amazing event, it will be a day that I will never forget...I love yall | | |
| home...oh, so sweet to be here again. walked along the road in my town today and ran into at least ten people who i spoke with as they slowly drove by...got my hair cut by an old friend as we laughed about life and change, and the need that we all have to go back and become kids again...levi and i now join together as we laugh with family and friends...so great to finally be doing this thing together...only a few more months and we will be together for real!!! i'm passed my time of fear and have not hit the excited stage of this journey. I'm ready for this stage, for this new road, for this time...I'm ready. My favorite part of the summer will definitely be the time I have with my loved ones...may every day count as I spend so much time with the Lord and with those who have been walking through life with me as long as I can remember...what a great summer this will be! | | |
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